It's been a while, huh? Sorry, life kinda caught up with me for a while and I got really distracted and didn't have much time for anything but job hunt and volunteering for the marching band. I'm back for good this time. I'll have my partner, Allie, remind me to post everyday.
Anyway, as I've been out for so long I've got lots to talk about, and I'm going to do it all in this one blog. Well, there's one thing I'm gonna save for tomorrow, but you'll see what it is then. Basically I'm going to do a bunch of blog posts (each with it's own title) in this one blog. So this'll be kinda long, but it should be pretty worth it, if I can remember everything I want to write about.
Modesty:
So, Bella (this anonymous girl who has a blog like mine about saving the world (I follow her blog)) wrote about modesty recently, then asked me in an email to do the same. I guess she wanted to see a guys point of view of modesty. Well Bella, and everyone else, here's what I think of modesty.
Girls: Respect yourself. Don't feel like you have to post half naked pictures of yourself online to get a guy. That's just disrespecting yourself, and if you disrespect yourself guys certainly won't respect you. Honestly, I have little sympathy for the girls who post pictures of mostly their boobs on Facebook or something, then complain that they can't find a good guy, or one who isn't totally about sex. My thought process is this: modest is hottest. My friend said that one time in front of me when he was talking to a girl who was exposing way to much cleavage, and I think he's exactly right. Girls, if you give the slightly nerdy guys a chance, or the guys who may not be the hottest out there chances are they will treat you like you deserve to be treated. Respect yourselves girls, and don't show too much. I'm not saying wear long pants and long sleeves and hoodies all the time. But you don't need to show everything either. You don't really need to wear shorts that are as high as a pair of tighty whities, ya know? I mean, can that even be comfortable?? Anyway, just treat yourselves the way you deserve to be treated , and don't let guys use you. Not showing as much is more fun in my mind, 'cause it leaves more to the imagination.
Guys: Treat girls respectfully. I'm not saying to worship the ground they walk on, no don't do that. That gets annoying for both of you. What ever happened to chivalry though? I mean, if you see a girl struggling offer help. It's not rocket science. I mean, don't do nice things just to get with a girl. That's just disrespectful. Seriously, it's okay to do things from the kindness of your heart. And while I'm talking to guys in general, dudes, you seriously have to stop commenting on girls sex appeal. Girls would much rather be complimented on their gorgeous eyes, or their perfect smile than their "awesome boobs" or their "tight a**." That's just plain wrong to do. It's really not hard to be a gentleman, so try your hardest. It may be harder to get in a relationship, but I've found the relationships are better if you both respect each other rather than focus on sex.
About Me:
There's some things in life I've learned the easy way, but not many. Most the things I know is because I've learned the hard way. I know, for example, people tend to not trust someone they know next to nothing about. So here it goes, so you all can hopefully trust me, here's about me.
For a long time my mom was a single mother, just trying to get ends to meet. At the time, she was also very sick, and was in bet a lot. During that time I tried my best to step up to the plate and take responsibility for my brother, sister, and myself. My sister was very young at the time, but my brother is only 21 months younger than me. It was difficult, because I was in Elementary school, and I really just wanted to have fun, but I remember doing my homework every day, and helping my brother with his. I felt like I was the man of the house (though I was still a little kid) and it was my job to make sure he did well. When my dad (technically step-dad, but he might as well be my dad) stepped into the picture, I was around the maturity level of an adult. I was super smart, cause I was always paying attention (though I normally had my face buried in a book). I was the kid who would read in class and then pass the tests easily. When dad came into the picture though, I wasn't as pressured, and as the pressure came off me to set a "fatherly" example I slacked off. So in middle school my grades majorly dropped. They went from all A's to around C's and D's. After that I was never super good with doing my homework on time, or in general. I turned pretty chill, and started spending a lot of time online.
After my first girlfriend dumped me, I kinda got really depressed, until Sammy and I got together. She and I dated for a while, but decided (on mutual terms) to pursue other people, with a promise that after high school we'd get back together. I wasn't the same after that. I spent more and more time online, and eventually started resorting to online flirting a lot. I'd flirt with a ton of girls all at the same time. Sometimes I'd ask a few of them out at the same time. I don't exactly have a reason for doing it, and it wasn't right of me. I really messed up. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for hurting all the girls I did. That ended pretty quickly, it only lasted around one summer. Then, me and my other friend (coincidentally also named Sam, nicknamed Sammy) started dating for all of a couple weeks or so. What actually got me to stop my flirting ways was (you guessed it) Sammy (the one you all have come to know through my blog). The next four years passed in a blur, and before I knew it it was graduation time. After graduation, Sammy and I were talking like we did every night, and she brought up our old promise. The one where we said we'd get back together after high school. The only problem was I've been dating a girl since junior year, and wasn't willing to break up with her to get back together with Sammy. Sammy's boyfriend also had been a real jerk to her, and treated her really poorly. I honestly think that part of the reason Sammy killed herself was because I couldn't keep my promise, and I don't think I'll ever get over that. If you wanna know the truth, I still cry myself to sleep sometimes 'cause I miss her. But the same night Sammy dies, I run into a new girl who's a lot like (and I mean a LOT) like Sammy. Of course, that's my partner Allie. Don't get me wrong, no one can replace Sammy. Not my girlfriend, not Allie, not anybody. Sammy will always hold a special place in my heart.
Now, I think that's really all about me. I'm just your average 18 (19 in November) guy who wants to save the world. I really hope you guys can trust me now. I mean, I literally put it all out there. I'm not the same guy I used to be anymore, and I'll never go back to being him. If you guys want to, please pass my blog along. Together, I know we can save the world, one person at a time. I'm here for you guys, any of you. Contact me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com if you ever need me. My email goes to my phone so I can have it instantly. I love you guys, all of you, even those of you I don't know.
Live on,
Gokin
