Every time I look in the mirror I see them. The flaws I know are oh-so apparent in me. I may seem confident, but I'm not. I may seem brave, but I'm scared. I may seem as though I have all the answers, but I'm really clueless. I don't know what has me thinking these things lately, but I've been struggling lately. I don't know why, but lately I don't see the good in me anymore, only the bad. I see myself for my flaws instead of anything good in me. I'm afraid that I'm starting to become depressed again, but I don't know why. It really makes no sense that I would randomly start being depressed or whatever, but it seems that way. I have a lot of good in my life, and I know that. I see that. But I can't help but see only the bad in myself now. I don't know why. I have an amazing girlfriend, and some fantastic friends, but for some reason I can only see myself thinking things like "Why aren't I as strong as him?" or, "I'm really not very attractive in comparison to these guys." I swear, I sound like a stereo-typical, self-conscious girl. But that's just it, I am self-conscious. I come off as confident, but I'm really not at all. I really doubt myself in just about everything. I don't see myself as an awesome guy or anything, but rather as an unattractive, weak idiot. Maybe I'm being a bit hard on myself for reasons I also don't know. I'm just not myself lately. I haven't been able to focus at all recently, like on anything. Even my gaming has been harder than normal to do, and that's kinda scary for me. Normally gaming is something I can do majorly easy, and hours on end without trying, but lately I just kinda don't feel like doing anything really.I dunno. This post is rather short, and extremely selfish, but I just really needed to vent, and didn't really want to tell anyone in particular, but did want to tell someone. Thanks for listening, to anyone who does actually read this. I'll start posting every Tuesday by 11 pm EST. Promise.
Live on,
Gokin
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Friends
Hey guys. College has been picking up a lot lately, but I've been writing every day, I just haven't had time to post what I've been writing. I'll try harder if someone reminds me though, I promise. But you don't come to this blog to read about what I've been up to, you read it to get a bit of insight on my mind, and boy does this topic strike close to home for me.
Friendship. It's a rather simple word. We really don't think much of it when we use it in our daily lives. We toss it around just like we do the word "love." But honestly, to me, friendship is a powerful thing. Friendship is one word that shouldn't be thrown around, because friendship is something that can save lives. When people don't have friends, it's a really lonely road. It's a road down darkness, a road with very little happiness around. It's a road that can often lead to suicide. The saddest thing, is that road is extremely hard to avoid. Friendship is a two-way street. One person can't do all the work in a friendship, otherwise nothing good is coming from it. That's just using someone, and that's wrong. Friends are there for each other through thick and thin, no matter what. Sure, friends may fight sometimes, but true friends will never turn their back on you.
The saddest part of friendship is losing a friend, whether it be from suicide, moving, or just simply growing apart. I've lost close friends due to all of these reasons, and barely have any friends that I had long ago. But the beautiful part of friends is that you can always make new ones. Even if you lose friends, there are millions of more people out there, some who are just waiting to meet someone just like you. I'm not saying a new friend can ever replace an old one, I'd never say that. I know that no one can replace Sammy. I also know no one can replace another friend of mine (ironically also named Sammy) that it feels I've just grown apart from. It's a sad thing, and something to mourn, but don't let the loss of one friendship stop you from making a new one. But at the same time, don't abuse the word "friend."
A friend is someone you care about, someone you would help no matter the cost. If you wouldn't try your hardest to make sure your friend is happy, you really can't call yourself a friend. Real friends care about their friends and don't want them to be in pain. To achieve this, they will go far out of their way to cheer them up. That's what it means to be a friend. It means to try your hardest for one another, no matter what.
I'm not saying it'll be all sunshine and rainbows, but real friendships can survive the rough paths no matter what is thrown at them. If you wouldn't go out of your way for a friend, then honestly I'd say you're a pretty bad friend. My blog isn't made to cut people down, but rather to build them up. It's made to inspire people to help me save the world. I'm not sure how I plan to do that by talking about random topics, but hopefully it'll help save lives, and that's a start.
Anyway, back from the tangent, I press the meaning of friendship so much because I know what it's like not to have any friends. I know what it's like to be the new kid who no one really liked. It's a terrible feeling, and one you really can't combat by yourself. It's one you need help with. You can't be a friend with only one person. That's why if you ever feel like you have no friends you can feel free to talk to me. I'll be your friend, and introduce you to people I know who would make good friends for you. The number one thing is not to think that no one is here for you, because I'll always be.
Cherish your friends, that's the main point of this. I could tell you countless stories about how awesome friendship can be, or how bittersweet in some cases, but I'm not going to. It's up to you to decide how much your friends mean to you. If you're the person who just doesn't really care if they come and go, then that's your decision. But you never do know if the person who's always been there will continue to be there the next day. I'm not ashamed to say I love my friends, even the guys. We are close as family, and that's the way friends should be. That's what I desire everyone to feel. If you ever need a friend, I'm always here.
By now you all know what I'm gonna ask. Please pass this blog around, not for my personal satisfaction, but for the fact that more blog views could mean more lives saved, and one step closer to saving the world. Thank you all for all that you do, I really appreciate it. This blog would be no-where if it wasn't for you. I love you all. If you ever need me, or have any suggestions for the blog, or would like to suggest a topic or anything please email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com
Thanks guys.
Live on,
Gokin
Friendship. It's a rather simple word. We really don't think much of it when we use it in our daily lives. We toss it around just like we do the word "love." But honestly, to me, friendship is a powerful thing. Friendship is one word that shouldn't be thrown around, because friendship is something that can save lives. When people don't have friends, it's a really lonely road. It's a road down darkness, a road with very little happiness around. It's a road that can often lead to suicide. The saddest thing, is that road is extremely hard to avoid. Friendship is a two-way street. One person can't do all the work in a friendship, otherwise nothing good is coming from it. That's just using someone, and that's wrong. Friends are there for each other through thick and thin, no matter what. Sure, friends may fight sometimes, but true friends will never turn their back on you.
The saddest part of friendship is losing a friend, whether it be from suicide, moving, or just simply growing apart. I've lost close friends due to all of these reasons, and barely have any friends that I had long ago. But the beautiful part of friends is that you can always make new ones. Even if you lose friends, there are millions of more people out there, some who are just waiting to meet someone just like you. I'm not saying a new friend can ever replace an old one, I'd never say that. I know that no one can replace Sammy. I also know no one can replace another friend of mine (ironically also named Sammy) that it feels I've just grown apart from. It's a sad thing, and something to mourn, but don't let the loss of one friendship stop you from making a new one. But at the same time, don't abuse the word "friend."
A friend is someone you care about, someone you would help no matter the cost. If you wouldn't try your hardest to make sure your friend is happy, you really can't call yourself a friend. Real friends care about their friends and don't want them to be in pain. To achieve this, they will go far out of their way to cheer them up. That's what it means to be a friend. It means to try your hardest for one another, no matter what.
I'm not saying it'll be all sunshine and rainbows, but real friendships can survive the rough paths no matter what is thrown at them. If you wouldn't go out of your way for a friend, then honestly I'd say you're a pretty bad friend. My blog isn't made to cut people down, but rather to build them up. It's made to inspire people to help me save the world. I'm not sure how I plan to do that by talking about random topics, but hopefully it'll help save lives, and that's a start.
Anyway, back from the tangent, I press the meaning of friendship so much because I know what it's like not to have any friends. I know what it's like to be the new kid who no one really liked. It's a terrible feeling, and one you really can't combat by yourself. It's one you need help with. You can't be a friend with only one person. That's why if you ever feel like you have no friends you can feel free to talk to me. I'll be your friend, and introduce you to people I know who would make good friends for you. The number one thing is not to think that no one is here for you, because I'll always be.
Cherish your friends, that's the main point of this. I could tell you countless stories about how awesome friendship can be, or how bittersweet in some cases, but I'm not going to. It's up to you to decide how much your friends mean to you. If you're the person who just doesn't really care if they come and go, then that's your decision. But you never do know if the person who's always been there will continue to be there the next day. I'm not ashamed to say I love my friends, even the guys. We are close as family, and that's the way friends should be. That's what I desire everyone to feel. If you ever need a friend, I'm always here.
By now you all know what I'm gonna ask. Please pass this blog around, not for my personal satisfaction, but for the fact that more blog views could mean more lives saved, and one step closer to saving the world. Thank you all for all that you do, I really appreciate it. This blog would be no-where if it wasn't for you. I love you all. If you ever need me, or have any suggestions for the blog, or would like to suggest a topic or anything please email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com
Thanks guys.
Live on,
Gokin
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Destiny and our hearts
Hey guys, I know I said I was gonna post everyday....but I guess I lied. I haven't had nearly the free time I thought I would, and I've been running out of ideas for posts, so email me anything you might want me to write about. Don't text me any ideas, cause I'll probably delete it without writing it. I'm a forgetful person haha. Anyway, sorry I haven't been blogging lately, but I do promise this time I really will. As long as someone can give me ideas. Now that that's over with, let's get on with it.
Destiny...What is destiny? Or perhaps I should ask something a bit more specific, something we all wonder: "What is my destiny?" What is my point in life. I personally refuse to believe I was put on this Earth to do nothing more than go through life, and then die. I'll never except that as my fate. I can just feel in my heart that I'm meant to do so much more than that. I'm not trying to sound so self important if that's how it seems, but I know I can't be the only one who thinks like this. Whatever, I'll search blindly through life until I finally do come across this destiny of mine. I won't pretend that I'll know what it is the moment I see it, but hopefully I won't miss my chance. Who knows, maybe I've already started on the road that leads to my destiny. As you all know I'm here for you, any and all of you. You all have a place in my heart and I'm more than happy to listen to anyone. Please share my blog and help it circulate. If you even show one person, and then they show one person and so on, imagine the kind of publicity we could get, and imagine the good that could come from it. I could finally get a good start on trying to save this crazy world, and it is all up to you. I need you all to help, just as I'll be here to help anyone that needs it, whether it's convenient for me or not.
"The heart may be weak, and sometimes..it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!"
-Sora, Kingdom Hearts
The quote above is true on so many levels, I don't even know where to start. I don't believe anyone's heart is pure evil, because deep down there is a light that never goes out, no matter how evil someone might be. I do not believe there is any heart above redemption. There is no man, woman, nor child incapable of change. Our hearts are our own, and no one else's. We control our hearts and nobody else. We, as humans, are each individuals who have individual feelings. No one can feel exactly the same as anyone else, because nobody has the same heart. Nobody has been through the exact same experience, nor has the exact same bond as anyone else. This isn't to say that humans are incapable of understanding one another, or how we feel, because we do have that ability. Our hearts are connected, tied by light or darkness. Whether you choose to live in darkness or in the light, always have your heart stand true and protect what you believe in. Our hearts are the only thing that allow us to protect those we love, and the ideals we believe in. You can be the strongest person in the world, but if you are weak in the heart, you may lose to any weakling with a strong heart. Those of us who have the strongest hearts will never lose, because we refuse to give up on what we love. I for one love this world. I love my friends, family, and everything about this world, and I'll never give up on it. I'll fight to defend this world even if it costs me my life. Never give up on what your heart tells you is right, no matter what anyone else says. Your heart is your own, and only you can tell what it says.
Never believe that I won't be here for you, because I will. My heart is set on protecting every one of you, as well as our very planet. I love you all, and will fight to protect you. I'll listen when you need me to, and won't talk unless you need me to. 'Cause I know sometimes you don't need to hear anyone say anything, you just need to talk. Anyway, I won't say much more since I already wrote it all up there.
Live on,
Gokin
Destiny...What is destiny? Or perhaps I should ask something a bit more specific, something we all wonder: "What is my destiny?" What is my point in life. I personally refuse to believe I was put on this Earth to do nothing more than go through life, and then die. I'll never except that as my fate. I can just feel in my heart that I'm meant to do so much more than that. I'm not trying to sound so self important if that's how it seems, but I know I can't be the only one who thinks like this. Whatever, I'll search blindly through life until I finally do come across this destiny of mine. I won't pretend that I'll know what it is the moment I see it, but hopefully I won't miss my chance. Who knows, maybe I've already started on the road that leads to my destiny. As you all know I'm here for you, any and all of you. You all have a place in my heart and I'm more than happy to listen to anyone. Please share my blog and help it circulate. If you even show one person, and then they show one person and so on, imagine the kind of publicity we could get, and imagine the good that could come from it. I could finally get a good start on trying to save this crazy world, and it is all up to you. I need you all to help, just as I'll be here to help anyone that needs it, whether it's convenient for me or not.
"The heart may be weak, and sometimes..it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!"
-Sora, Kingdom Hearts
The quote above is true on so many levels, I don't even know where to start. I don't believe anyone's heart is pure evil, because deep down there is a light that never goes out, no matter how evil someone might be. I do not believe there is any heart above redemption. There is no man, woman, nor child incapable of change. Our hearts are our own, and no one else's. We control our hearts and nobody else. We, as humans, are each individuals who have individual feelings. No one can feel exactly the same as anyone else, because nobody has the same heart. Nobody has been through the exact same experience, nor has the exact same bond as anyone else. This isn't to say that humans are incapable of understanding one another, or how we feel, because we do have that ability. Our hearts are connected, tied by light or darkness. Whether you choose to live in darkness or in the light, always have your heart stand true and protect what you believe in. Our hearts are the only thing that allow us to protect those we love, and the ideals we believe in. You can be the strongest person in the world, but if you are weak in the heart, you may lose to any weakling with a strong heart. Those of us who have the strongest hearts will never lose, because we refuse to give up on what we love. I for one love this world. I love my friends, family, and everything about this world, and I'll never give up on it. I'll fight to defend this world even if it costs me my life. Never give up on what your heart tells you is right, no matter what anyone else says. Your heart is your own, and only you can tell what it says.
Never believe that I won't be here for you, because I will. My heart is set on protecting every one of you, as well as our very planet. I love you all, and will fight to protect you. I'll listen when you need me to, and won't talk unless you need me to. 'Cause I know sometimes you don't need to hear anyone say anything, you just need to talk. Anyway, I won't say much more since I already wrote it all up there.
Live on,
Gokin
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Making Up For Lost Time
Hey guys,
It's been a while, huh? Sorry, life kinda caught up with me for a while and I got really distracted and didn't have much time for anything but job hunt and volunteering for the marching band. I'm back for good this time. I'll have my partner, Allie, remind me to post everyday.
Anyway, as I've been out for so long I've got lots to talk about, and I'm going to do it all in this one blog. Well, there's one thing I'm gonna save for tomorrow, but you'll see what it is then. Basically I'm going to do a bunch of blog posts (each with it's own title) in this one blog. So this'll be kinda long, but it should be pretty worth it, if I can remember everything I want to write about.
It's been a while, huh? Sorry, life kinda caught up with me for a while and I got really distracted and didn't have much time for anything but job hunt and volunteering for the marching band. I'm back for good this time. I'll have my partner, Allie, remind me to post everyday.
Anyway, as I've been out for so long I've got lots to talk about, and I'm going to do it all in this one blog. Well, there's one thing I'm gonna save for tomorrow, but you'll see what it is then. Basically I'm going to do a bunch of blog posts (each with it's own title) in this one blog. So this'll be kinda long, but it should be pretty worth it, if I can remember everything I want to write about.
Modesty:
So, Bella (this anonymous girl who has a blog like mine about saving the world (I follow her blog)) wrote about modesty recently, then asked me in an email to do the same. I guess she wanted to see a guys point of view of modesty. Well Bella, and everyone else, here's what I think of modesty.
Girls: Respect yourself. Don't feel like you have to post half naked pictures of yourself online to get a guy. That's just disrespecting yourself, and if you disrespect yourself guys certainly won't respect you. Honestly, I have little sympathy for the girls who post pictures of mostly their boobs on Facebook or something, then complain that they can't find a good guy, or one who isn't totally about sex. My thought process is this: modest is hottest. My friend said that one time in front of me when he was talking to a girl who was exposing way to much cleavage, and I think he's exactly right. Girls, if you give the slightly nerdy guys a chance, or the guys who may not be the hottest out there chances are they will treat you like you deserve to be treated. Respect yourselves girls, and don't show too much. I'm not saying wear long pants and long sleeves and hoodies all the time. But you don't need to show everything either. You don't really need to wear shorts that are as high as a pair of tighty whities, ya know? I mean, can that even be comfortable?? Anyway, just treat yourselves the way you deserve to be treated , and don't let guys use you. Not showing as much is more fun in my mind, 'cause it leaves more to the imagination.
Guys: Treat girls respectfully. I'm not saying to worship the ground they walk on, no don't do that. That gets annoying for both of you. What ever happened to chivalry though? I mean, if you see a girl struggling offer help. It's not rocket science. I mean, don't do nice things just to get with a girl. That's just disrespectful. Seriously, it's okay to do things from the kindness of your heart. And while I'm talking to guys in general, dudes, you seriously have to stop commenting on girls sex appeal. Girls would much rather be complimented on their gorgeous eyes, or their perfect smile than their "awesome boobs" or their "tight a**." That's just plain wrong to do. It's really not hard to be a gentleman, so try your hardest. It may be harder to get in a relationship, but I've found the relationships are better if you both respect each other rather than focus on sex.
About Me:
There's some things in life I've learned the easy way, but not many. Most the things I know is because I've learned the hard way. I know, for example, people tend to not trust someone they know next to nothing about. So here it goes, so you all can hopefully trust me, here's about me.
For a long time my mom was a single mother, just trying to get ends to meet. At the time, she was also very sick, and was in bet a lot. During that time I tried my best to step up to the plate and take responsibility for my brother, sister, and myself. My sister was very young at the time, but my brother is only 21 months younger than me. It was difficult, because I was in Elementary school, and I really just wanted to have fun, but I remember doing my homework every day, and helping my brother with his. I felt like I was the man of the house (though I was still a little kid) and it was my job to make sure he did well. When my dad (technically step-dad, but he might as well be my dad) stepped into the picture, I was around the maturity level of an adult. I was super smart, cause I was always paying attention (though I normally had my face buried in a book). I was the kid who would read in class and then pass the tests easily. When dad came into the picture though, I wasn't as pressured, and as the pressure came off me to set a "fatherly" example I slacked off. So in middle school my grades majorly dropped. They went from all A's to around C's and D's. After that I was never super good with doing my homework on time, or in general. I turned pretty chill, and started spending a lot of time online.
After my first girlfriend dumped me, I kinda got really depressed, until Sammy and I got together. She and I dated for a while, but decided (on mutual terms) to pursue other people, with a promise that after high school we'd get back together. I wasn't the same after that. I spent more and more time online, and eventually started resorting to online flirting a lot. I'd flirt with a ton of girls all at the same time. Sometimes I'd ask a few of them out at the same time. I don't exactly have a reason for doing it, and it wasn't right of me. I really messed up. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for hurting all the girls I did. That ended pretty quickly, it only lasted around one summer. Then, me and my other friend (coincidentally also named Sam, nicknamed Sammy) started dating for all of a couple weeks or so. What actually got me to stop my flirting ways was (you guessed it) Sammy (the one you all have come to know through my blog). The next four years passed in a blur, and before I knew it it was graduation time. After graduation, Sammy and I were talking like we did every night, and she brought up our old promise. The one where we said we'd get back together after high school. The only problem was I've been dating a girl since junior year, and wasn't willing to break up with her to get back together with Sammy. Sammy's boyfriend also had been a real jerk to her, and treated her really poorly. I honestly think that part of the reason Sammy killed herself was because I couldn't keep my promise, and I don't think I'll ever get over that. If you wanna know the truth, I still cry myself to sleep sometimes 'cause I miss her. But the same night Sammy dies, I run into a new girl who's a lot like (and I mean a LOT) like Sammy. Of course, that's my partner Allie. Don't get me wrong, no one can replace Sammy. Not my girlfriend, not Allie, not anybody. Sammy will always hold a special place in my heart.
Now, I think that's really all about me. I'm just your average 18 (19 in November) guy who wants to save the world. I really hope you guys can trust me now. I mean, I literally put it all out there. I'm not the same guy I used to be anymore, and I'll never go back to being him. If you guys want to, please pass my blog along. Together, I know we can save the world, one person at a time. I'm here for you guys, any of you. Contact me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com if you ever need me. My email goes to my phone so I can have it instantly. I love you guys, all of you, even those of you I don't know.
Live on,
Gokin
Monday, July 9, 2012
We are ONE
If any of you like Simple Plan, you may have heard their song "One." I really love Simple Plan, but that's beyond the point. This song has some amazing lyrics, that really got me thinking today. So without further ado, here's the lyrics (if you just want to skip them obviously nothing is stopping you)
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We're the tear in your eyes
We're the blood in your veins
We're the beat of your hearts
We're the sweat on your face
We're the ones that you chase
We're the promise that you made
We're the voice in your head
We're the lies that you said
We're the kids that you pushed away
We are...
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We are one
We're the pride of your lives
We're the light shining deep in your eyes
We're the choice that you made
We're the smile on your face
When you sleep at night
We're the best thing you had
But you left us behind
We're the kids that you pushed away
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We are one, one
We're the pain that you feel
We're the scars that don't heal
We're the tear in your eyes
We're the reason you cry
We're the voice in your head
We're the lies that you said
We're the best thing you had
But you pushed us away
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We are, we are the lost
The ones forgotten
And we've got nothing to lose
Together we stand up tall
We are one
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We're the tear in your eyes
We're the blood in your veins
We're the beat of your hearts
We're the sweat on your face
We're the ones that you chase
We're the promise that you made
We're the voice in your head
We're the lies that you said
We're the kids that you pushed away
We are...
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We are one
We're the pride of your lives
We're the light shining deep in your eyes
We're the choice that you made
We're the smile on your face
When you sleep at night
We're the best thing you had
But you left us behind
We're the kids that you pushed away
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We are one, one
We're the pain that you feel
We're the scars that don't heal
We're the tear in your eyes
We're the reason you cry
We're the voice in your head
We're the lies that you said
We're the best thing you had
But you pushed us away
We are the lost
The ones forgotten
And this time
The future is ours
It's in our hands
We are, we are the lost
The ones forgotten
And we've got nothing to lose
Together we stand up tall
We are one
Now, I really like those lyrics. I used to listen to this song all the time in High School cause I was pretty much an outsider. I had my few close friends that I hung out with, and my other friends, but I really wasn't "popular" or anything like that. Anyway, this song would always remind me that it isn't your popularity, or anything else that makes us important. What's important is that we get along. It's important that we all stand together. Guys (and girls obviously) if we stick together, there's nothing we can't accomplish. Like I've always said, we're the future. Like Simple Plan says "The future is ours, it's in our hands." I admire the Disney Channel "Friends for Change." They are doing things to help our planet, and save the world. We all, together, can save this world. I'm not really gonna say much today, but there will be a second post tonight (hopefully). Anyway, think about the song. I'm here for you guys, any and all of you. We're all together, and we are ONE with this world. Contact me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com for anything you need, or any suggestions you have for a blog post or want to see something changed for the blog. I love you guys.
Live on,
Gokin
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Fear and lies
Fear. The word has a negative connotation, doesn't it? As soon as you hear it you can only think of bad things. Things that make you afraid. I'm not gonna lie, I do the same. I've realized today what some of my major fears are. I'm afraid to lose my friends, I'm afraid to lose my family, and I'm afraid to fail to save the world. This blog post won't really be like the others, this one is gonna be more from the heart than any other one ever has. So here we go.
Today, I learned that fear is desperately important. They call the man with no fear courageous. I call him an idiot. They call the man who faces his fears to save someone crazy. I call him a hero. The lack of fear is not courage, it is stupidity. Courage is the ability to face your fear, not the lack of having fear. He who can face fear is someone I respect.
I really don't respect myself too much. I know all my flaws (obviously) so I really don't like myself. But today...I'm kind of proud of myself. I faced my fear of losing a friend, and not just any friend..my best friend. I mean, don't get me wrong. I wasn't standing there triumphantly laughing as I quickly faced my fear. Nothing like that at all. Quite the opposite if you want to know the truth. I was near tears trying hard not to cry (my contacts kept messing up cause of it). The friend in question is my partner, Allie. We fought today for the first time. I'd been lying to her about something since I met her and I had to tell her the truth. It was really wrong of me to lie to her, especially for so long. I hope that in time she can forgive me, we've agreed to stay best friends and partners though. The point of that is..well. I'm not the bravest kid around. I'll stick up for people being bullied, and stuff, but when I'm confronted with something I fear I kinda freeze up. This one time I knew I had to tell the truth though I knew I could not only lose my best friend, but also (without her) I possibly could lose my mission to save the world. My point is, if I can do it anyone can. I'm no superman. But I will work my way up to being Reptar. That doesn't make sense to a lot of you so let me explain. In the words of Allie, Reptar (from Rugrats) was pretty much the hero, everyone looked up to him. That's what I'm going to work my way up to being. I'm gonna try to work my way up to being someone people can look up to.
Also, you know how people always say "honesty is the best policy?" That's really true. If I had told Allie the truth from the start none of this would have ever happened. Even if it hurts someone, it's better to tell a hard truth than an easy lie. Sammy always told me that, and I really should have listened. Sammy, if there's even a tiny possibility that you can see this somehow magically, I'm sorry. I went back to the way I was for a while even though you helped me so much to change. I'll continue working at it, I promise. Speaking of Sammy, yesterday marked two weeks since she's been gone..It's still really hard to believe that she's gone, but I think I'm getting better. I have my friends, my music, and my mission. What else do I need?
Anyway, once again, I'm begging you guys to please pass this blog along. Tomorrow's update (yes there will be one even if I have to do if from my phone) will be much deeper and philosophical. So please pass this blog along, you never know when someone may need to know that I'm here. Because I am here for you, any of you. Whether I know you in real life or not. Whether we're the best of friends or the worst of enemies, or somewhere in the middle. If you ever need me, to talk to about anything at all, I'm here. If you have suggestions for the blog, or something you'd like me to write about, I'm all ears. Email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. Don't be shy people, I check my email regularly.
Live on,
Gokin
Today, I learned that fear is desperately important. They call the man with no fear courageous. I call him an idiot. They call the man who faces his fears to save someone crazy. I call him a hero. The lack of fear is not courage, it is stupidity. Courage is the ability to face your fear, not the lack of having fear. He who can face fear is someone I respect.
I really don't respect myself too much. I know all my flaws (obviously) so I really don't like myself. But today...I'm kind of proud of myself. I faced my fear of losing a friend, and not just any friend..my best friend. I mean, don't get me wrong. I wasn't standing there triumphantly laughing as I quickly faced my fear. Nothing like that at all. Quite the opposite if you want to know the truth. I was near tears trying hard not to cry (my contacts kept messing up cause of it). The friend in question is my partner, Allie. We fought today for the first time. I'd been lying to her about something since I met her and I had to tell her the truth. It was really wrong of me to lie to her, especially for so long. I hope that in time she can forgive me, we've agreed to stay best friends and partners though. The point of that is..well. I'm not the bravest kid around. I'll stick up for people being bullied, and stuff, but when I'm confronted with something I fear I kinda freeze up. This one time I knew I had to tell the truth though I knew I could not only lose my best friend, but also (without her) I possibly could lose my mission to save the world. My point is, if I can do it anyone can. I'm no superman. But I will work my way up to being Reptar. That doesn't make sense to a lot of you so let me explain. In the words of Allie, Reptar (from Rugrats) was pretty much the hero, everyone looked up to him. That's what I'm going to work my way up to being. I'm gonna try to work my way up to being someone people can look up to.
Also, you know how people always say "honesty is the best policy?" That's really true. If I had told Allie the truth from the start none of this would have ever happened. Even if it hurts someone, it's better to tell a hard truth than an easy lie. Sammy always told me that, and I really should have listened. Sammy, if there's even a tiny possibility that you can see this somehow magically, I'm sorry. I went back to the way I was for a while even though you helped me so much to change. I'll continue working at it, I promise. Speaking of Sammy, yesterday marked two weeks since she's been gone..It's still really hard to believe that she's gone, but I think I'm getting better. I have my friends, my music, and my mission. What else do I need?
Anyway, once again, I'm begging you guys to please pass this blog along. Tomorrow's update (yes there will be one even if I have to do if from my phone) will be much deeper and philosophical. So please pass this blog along, you never know when someone may need to know that I'm here. Because I am here for you, any of you. Whether I know you in real life or not. Whether we're the best of friends or the worst of enemies, or somewhere in the middle. If you ever need me, to talk to about anything at all, I'm here. If you have suggestions for the blog, or something you'd like me to write about, I'm all ears. Email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. Don't be shy people, I check my email regularly.
Live on,
Gokin
Sunday, July 1, 2012
The Little Things
Hey guys, guess who's back. Sorry for the little unexpected vacation there, it was well spent though. Basically, I spent the time just hanging around, and focusing on the big picture. It was really good for me. It's given me a wider thought process, and hopefully a few thoughts on how to save the world.
Anyway, have you noticed that we all tend to take advantage of things? Like, we really don't notice how much something or someone means to us until they are gone. I think it's important for us all to realize what's important to us. During the past few days, I've really come to know what's important to me. Really, my family, my friends, and my mission are the things most important to me. I mean, I love everyone I swear. It's just I love certain people more, if that makes sense. Guys, don't hesitate to tell anyone you love them. Because if you wait it could be to late. I got lucky and managed to tell Sammy I loved her before she left, but I could have easily been too late. I'm not sure how much I can talk right now, but I just want to let you all know I'm here as always. Appreciate what you have because it could leave in a heartbeat. Don't take your family or friends for granted, because if you do, you might regret it.
I love you guys, as always, please send this to people, and I'm here for everyone. Contact me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. I really don't feel like talking a lot right now, so I'm sorry. I'll have a nice and long post tomorrow, I promise.
Live on,
Gokin
Anyway, have you noticed that we all tend to take advantage of things? Like, we really don't notice how much something or someone means to us until they are gone. I think it's important for us all to realize what's important to us. During the past few days, I've really come to know what's important to me. Really, my family, my friends, and my mission are the things most important to me. I mean, I love everyone I swear. It's just I love certain people more, if that makes sense. Guys, don't hesitate to tell anyone you love them. Because if you wait it could be to late. I got lucky and managed to tell Sammy I loved her before she left, but I could have easily been too late. I'm not sure how much I can talk right now, but I just want to let you all know I'm here as always. Appreciate what you have because it could leave in a heartbeat. Don't take your family or friends for granted, because if you do, you might regret it.
I love you guys, as always, please send this to people, and I'm here for everyone. Contact me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. I really don't feel like talking a lot right now, so I'm sorry. I'll have a nice and long post tomorrow, I promise.
Live on,
Gokin
Monday, June 25, 2012
Loneliness
Ever feel like you're the only person in the world? Ever feel like all your friends don't really want to talk to you? Do you feel like sometimes you don't even have any friends? Well, you're not alone, let me tell you that. I'm not going to say we all feel lonely, because I don't know everyone. There are some people who I bet don't feel lonely at all. But many of us, we feel it often. So you're not alone, when you feel alone in the world. If no one is texting you, email me with your number, and I will. It doesn't matter if I know you or not, I'll text you like you've been my best friend for years. No one should have to go through the pain of feeling lonely. I know that pain well. The feeling that no one wants you. The feeling that no one wants to be around you. Let me tell you, I have felt that way too much. So if you need a friend, I'm here.
Ever since Sammy died (I know, I write about her a lot. You have to understand that she was my closest friend though.) I've been feeling even more lonely than usual. I thought I was going to go insane with grief and loneliness. I'd never told any of my friends about her (See, we went to elementary school together, then I moved and we got back in touch halfway through middle school cause of the internet, and I never really ended up talking about her to my other friends. She was like my secret friend that only I had out of all my friends..if that makes sense). I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone about Sammy because they wouldn't understand. I thought: "How could they understand when they didn't even know she existed. Will they even care?" I really underestimated my friends. I guess I thought that since we didn't talk everyday, we weren't especially close. I'll never forget how much they consoled me when they read my first post and they found out about Sammy. Anyway, got a bit off topic there, but anyway, I still cry myself to sleep just about every night because I miss Sammy so much. I mean, she was my closest friend. Without her it's like my very existence is missing something. I'm extremely lonely now, even when I'm happy. But I have my friends to help me, and that's all I'll ever need.
The loneliness you feel is natural. And I'm here to help in any way possible. Loneliness is not a very happy feeling to say the least, and I know it sucks. I know exactly how it can twist your thoughts, how it can make it seem like your friends don't care. But always remember, your friends care about you, they love you. I love you. Even if I don't know you, even if we have fought in the past I still love you. I'd give up my life to keep you all happy. You all mean the world to me. Scratch that. You all are the world to me, and you don't deserve to feel lonely. I'm here. And I'm willing to listen. Whether it be 2 in the afternoon, 2 in the morning, 5 in the morning, whenever. If you need me, you can count on me.
Loneliness is a trick to make you think you're alone. But you're not. You have your friends, and family, and me. If you don't have friends or family, you have me. I'm not saying I'm all you'll ever need, but I know some pretty amazing people, and I'm sure I can introduce you to people with similar interests. I know I'm being a bit forward, but loneliness sucks, and you don't need it in your life. So yeah, I'm here for you
Now...I thought to end today's blog (it's a bit shorter than normal I think, but it's also pretty late) I'd talk a bit more about my quest to save the world. I've been thinking a lot about it lately, and the idea of one guy trying to save the world by himself seems pretty stupid...So I've taken a new partner. This feels really sudden for me, but I know it is the right move. I think Sammy ended up bringing me and Allie together for a reason, and this might be that reason. We're talking about writing a book together. I really like the idea, maybe a published book about saving the world will open even more people's eyes than just a couple of blogs. I've made a decision on how to start saving the world too. I want to do it one person at a time, if that makes sense. Obviously I'll do anything I can with as many people as possible, but I'm not going to leave some people hanging just because they are one person. No one life is more precious than another. So I will not ignore any one person because a group needs me.
Anyway, this is the last thing I swear. I want you all to share this blog. Not so I get the personal satisfaction of more views or whatever. I want to make a difference in the world, and that won't happen unless this starts circulating. Think about it too, it could literally save someone's life if you get them to read some of this. Like, if (for instance) they were thinking about suicide or anything but didn't want to tell anyone they knew, I can be here for them. I'm just saying it could really help some people you care about. I'm here for any of you, I promise. And anything you send me will be strictly between you and I. Not even Allie will see unless I have your permission to show her. If you ever need anything email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. Remember, you're not alone, I love you.
Live on,
Gokin
Ever since Sammy died (I know, I write about her a lot. You have to understand that she was my closest friend though.) I've been feeling even more lonely than usual. I thought I was going to go insane with grief and loneliness. I'd never told any of my friends about her (See, we went to elementary school together, then I moved and we got back in touch halfway through middle school cause of the internet, and I never really ended up talking about her to my other friends. She was like my secret friend that only I had out of all my friends..if that makes sense). I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone about Sammy because they wouldn't understand. I thought: "How could they understand when they didn't even know she existed. Will they even care?" I really underestimated my friends. I guess I thought that since we didn't talk everyday, we weren't especially close. I'll never forget how much they consoled me when they read my first post and they found out about Sammy. Anyway, got a bit off topic there, but anyway, I still cry myself to sleep just about every night because I miss Sammy so much. I mean, she was my closest friend. Without her it's like my very existence is missing something. I'm extremely lonely now, even when I'm happy. But I have my friends to help me, and that's all I'll ever need.
The loneliness you feel is natural. And I'm here to help in any way possible. Loneliness is not a very happy feeling to say the least, and I know it sucks. I know exactly how it can twist your thoughts, how it can make it seem like your friends don't care. But always remember, your friends care about you, they love you. I love you. Even if I don't know you, even if we have fought in the past I still love you. I'd give up my life to keep you all happy. You all mean the world to me. Scratch that. You all are the world to me, and you don't deserve to feel lonely. I'm here. And I'm willing to listen. Whether it be 2 in the afternoon, 2 in the morning, 5 in the morning, whenever. If you need me, you can count on me.
Loneliness is a trick to make you think you're alone. But you're not. You have your friends, and family, and me. If you don't have friends or family, you have me. I'm not saying I'm all you'll ever need, but I know some pretty amazing people, and I'm sure I can introduce you to people with similar interests. I know I'm being a bit forward, but loneliness sucks, and you don't need it in your life. So yeah, I'm here for you
Now...I thought to end today's blog (it's a bit shorter than normal I think, but it's also pretty late) I'd talk a bit more about my quest to save the world. I've been thinking a lot about it lately, and the idea of one guy trying to save the world by himself seems pretty stupid...So I've taken a new partner. This feels really sudden for me, but I know it is the right move. I think Sammy ended up bringing me and Allie together for a reason, and this might be that reason. We're talking about writing a book together. I really like the idea, maybe a published book about saving the world will open even more people's eyes than just a couple of blogs. I've made a decision on how to start saving the world too. I want to do it one person at a time, if that makes sense. Obviously I'll do anything I can with as many people as possible, but I'm not going to leave some people hanging just because they are one person. No one life is more precious than another. So I will not ignore any one person because a group needs me.
Anyway, this is the last thing I swear. I want you all to share this blog. Not so I get the personal satisfaction of more views or whatever. I want to make a difference in the world, and that won't happen unless this starts circulating. Think about it too, it could literally save someone's life if you get them to read some of this. Like, if (for instance) they were thinking about suicide or anything but didn't want to tell anyone they knew, I can be here for them. I'm just saying it could really help some people you care about. I'm here for any of you, I promise. And anything you send me will be strictly between you and I. Not even Allie will see unless I have your permission to show her. If you ever need anything email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. Remember, you're not alone, I love you.
Live on,
Gokin
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Bullying
Chances are that in your life you have been bullied, know someone who has, or have witnessed it. Bullying is a problem that has been sweeping the world at an alarming rate. Obviously bullying isn't a new problem, but that doesn't make it alright. People kill themselves way to often because of bullying. We need to do something about bullying. It's not right that people get away with it. I'm not saying they need to be harshly punished, but really, something has to be done. We can't let bullying go on.
I know people who have been been bullied. My best friend has been bullied, my brother has been bullied, and my sister has been bullied. I'm the only one of my siblings who hasn't. But I am the only one who has stood up to the bullies. One particular story comes to mind that I would like to share.
You see, all year the "cool" kids made fun of my friend Lewis in Spanish. They constantly put him down no matter what he did. If he tried to answer they made fun of him, whether his answer was correct or incorrect. It got to the point where even the teacher got in on it. On the last day of school, they all ganged up on him at once. They were saying they were going to jump him after class and were threatening a lot of violence. The teacher was turning a blind eye as always and I couldn't take it any more. That day I decided to dress "up" for celebration of our last day, and looked pretty scary if you wanna know the truth. I had my hair spiked (which I do half the time anyway) but I was wearing leather pants with chains all over them, combat boots that were worn out (official Marine combat boots at that), I was wearing a red kinda chain-mail type shirt with a silver over-shirt, black eyeliner, and my wristbands (one is black leather with studs and the other is checkered). I'll admit I looked pretty intimidating, but I'm proud of what I did. I looked dead in the face of the ring-leader. He was on the football team, one of those muscly guys, also son of the vice principal, and pretty much thought he ruled the school. But yeah, I looked him dead in the eye and said "Knock it off." He didn't like that very much. He glared at me and said "Knock what off, we're just joking, he knows that." Then he hit Lewis, as if too show his point. I put my hand on my desk as if I was about to stand up and said "Yeah, well it's pretty obvious he doesn't like it, so knock it off." Then he got close and asked "Well who's gonna make us?" I stood up at that point (everyone in class was pretty much standing up anyway) and got up close to him as well and I said "I will. One on one, or I'll take all of ya. Your choice." At that point they started backing down. All his friends were saying to just let it be, and just to stop. He did at that point too. He said (exact quote, minus my name change. I'm not posting my real name, Gokin will do just fine) "Alright, I'm done. Gokin's got his swag on today"
Now, I'm not saying that it's okay to try to use force to intimidate others out of bullying, it's better to go to a teacher or adult. But my other point is that bully's are typically cowards. Very rarely can they actually fight. They'll typically back down if offered a challenge. It's way to risky to fight back though, unless you *know* you can fight good. My advice if you're dealing with a bully is to go to an adult you trust to handle it. Kids have the power to change the world, but we need the help of adults to do it.
This part is for bully's. I know life can be hard, believe me. I've seen abuse before, I've seen pain and suffering. I know what it's like for it to be hard to trust, but hurting others doesn't make the pain go away. You know what does make the pain go away? Friendship. Yeah, you can say that what I said is gay, but it's true. The number one healer of emotional pain, is friendship. I don't know what state my mind would be in after the death of Sammy if I didn't have my friends. They've been helping me tremendously, and I appreciate every last one of them. I love my friends, and I'm not ashamed to say it. There's nothing I wouldn't do for them, I would even die for them. I'd die to save the world. Bullies, you don't have to hurt others. I'm going to issue a challenge to you. Go to someone you have bullied, and apologize, ask for forgiveness. Chances are, you could be saving someone's life. And with that, you're helping to save the world.
Bullying is wrong, but if we just stop it, if we find a way to redirect our anger into something useful, we can make the world a much better place. So next time you're angry, instead of taking it out on another human, try playing a video game, or working out, or hitting a punching bag. I've found all those to be extremely helpful.
If you have problems with a bully and need to rant, or just need to talk to someone about anything, I'm here. For any of you. Email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. I love you all, and I love this world.
Live on,
Gokin
I know people who have been been bullied. My best friend has been bullied, my brother has been bullied, and my sister has been bullied. I'm the only one of my siblings who hasn't. But I am the only one who has stood up to the bullies. One particular story comes to mind that I would like to share.
You see, all year the "cool" kids made fun of my friend Lewis in Spanish. They constantly put him down no matter what he did. If he tried to answer they made fun of him, whether his answer was correct or incorrect. It got to the point where even the teacher got in on it. On the last day of school, they all ganged up on him at once. They were saying they were going to jump him after class and were threatening a lot of violence. The teacher was turning a blind eye as always and I couldn't take it any more. That day I decided to dress "up" for celebration of our last day, and looked pretty scary if you wanna know the truth. I had my hair spiked (which I do half the time anyway) but I was wearing leather pants with chains all over them, combat boots that were worn out (official Marine combat boots at that), I was wearing a red kinda chain-mail type shirt with a silver over-shirt, black eyeliner, and my wristbands (one is black leather with studs and the other is checkered). I'll admit I looked pretty intimidating, but I'm proud of what I did. I looked dead in the face of the ring-leader. He was on the football team, one of those muscly guys, also son of the vice principal, and pretty much thought he ruled the school. But yeah, I looked him dead in the eye and said "Knock it off." He didn't like that very much. He glared at me and said "Knock what off, we're just joking, he knows that." Then he hit Lewis, as if too show his point. I put my hand on my desk as if I was about to stand up and said "Yeah, well it's pretty obvious he doesn't like it, so knock it off." Then he got close and asked "Well who's gonna make us?" I stood up at that point (everyone in class was pretty much standing up anyway) and got up close to him as well and I said "I will. One on one, or I'll take all of ya. Your choice." At that point they started backing down. All his friends were saying to just let it be, and just to stop. He did at that point too. He said (exact quote, minus my name change. I'm not posting my real name, Gokin will do just fine) "Alright, I'm done. Gokin's got his swag on today"
Now, I'm not saying that it's okay to try to use force to intimidate others out of bullying, it's better to go to a teacher or adult. But my other point is that bully's are typically cowards. Very rarely can they actually fight. They'll typically back down if offered a challenge. It's way to risky to fight back though, unless you *know* you can fight good. My advice if you're dealing with a bully is to go to an adult you trust to handle it. Kids have the power to change the world, but we need the help of adults to do it.
This part is for bully's. I know life can be hard, believe me. I've seen abuse before, I've seen pain and suffering. I know what it's like for it to be hard to trust, but hurting others doesn't make the pain go away. You know what does make the pain go away? Friendship. Yeah, you can say that what I said is gay, but it's true. The number one healer of emotional pain, is friendship. I don't know what state my mind would be in after the death of Sammy if I didn't have my friends. They've been helping me tremendously, and I appreciate every last one of them. I love my friends, and I'm not ashamed to say it. There's nothing I wouldn't do for them, I would even die for them. I'd die to save the world. Bullies, you don't have to hurt others. I'm going to issue a challenge to you. Go to someone you have bullied, and apologize, ask for forgiveness. Chances are, you could be saving someone's life. And with that, you're helping to save the world.
Bullying is wrong, but if we just stop it, if we find a way to redirect our anger into something useful, we can make the world a much better place. So next time you're angry, instead of taking it out on another human, try playing a video game, or working out, or hitting a punching bag. I've found all those to be extremely helpful.
If you have problems with a bully and need to rant, or just need to talk to someone about anything, I'm here. For any of you. Email me at Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. I love you all, and I love this world.
Live on,
Gokin
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Kid Power
Kids are helpless, right? Kids can't fight for what they believe in, can they? They have to let the adults fight their battles because they are to weak to. Am I right? Kids are weak and defenseless and need the adults to do everything for them. Kid's can't stand up for themselves without an adult. A kid can never save the world. These statements are correct, right? WRONG!
Kids have the power. We are the future of this planet, and we need to take our planet back. It's our job to save the world. We can do it, even without the adults. Kids can be just as smart, just as wise as the adults. And in some cases even smarter, even wiser. We have the imagination to put our plans into effect. I'm not saying adults can't help us, 'cause they are a major help. But we have the power. Kids can fight for our world. The adults can help, but it's up to us to save the world. Individually one kid can do great good. We can do countless things separately. But together, we can do ANYTHING.
Adults aren't bad people, they were kids once too. But as we grow older, we lose our child-like innocence. We need to get back to the mindset of a child. We need to get back to the point where everyone is a potential friend rather than enemy. We need to get back to the point where we can trust again. Adults, you don't have to be adults if that makes sense. Go back to being a kid. Go back to trusting, go back to having fun. Go back to what made your childhood worth living. The world is so obsessed with getting ahead. So worried about success, it makes me sick. We need to get back to the times where we did things because they made us happy, not to try to beat someone else. Where we do our jobs to support each other, not because of the amount of money, or how much recognition you'll get.
Ask a kid what they want to do with their lives. They'll tell you what they think is cool. They'll tell you they want to sing, to act, to be president, to be a cop, or a super hero. You know why? Because they believe that they can. Why can't they do it? Why can't they be the next president, or a superstar? I'll tell you why. It's because people cut them down. People tell them that their dream isn't reasonable. There's a 1 in a million chance of making it. So the kid gets disheartened and loses faith and ends up doing something they hate for the rest of their lives.
You know what I say to this? I say it needs to stop. We need to encourage kids to follow their dreams. We need to tell them that they can be the next president, or a famous superstar, or a model, or they can be the next Superman or Spiderman. Who knows, maybe one of them will actually make it. Sure, they may not have the strength of Superman, but they could definitely work out to be strong. With the encouragement of those around us, anything is possible. No one is born better than anyone else, some just work harder because people believe they can do it.
Kids, it's time to take our place back at the leaders of the world. We control the fate of the world, the adults are just there to help guide us. It's our world that we inherit, so let's make it a world to be proud of. Let's save this world and everyone in it. Together we can make a world without fear, but with trust instead. We can make a world where we all get along. We can make a world where we are all free to live how we choose. Kids, we have the power, so let's use it to make the world great.
As always, I'm here if anyone needs me. Just email me. Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. I'm here to listen if you need it, or if you have ideas for the blog. Let's make this world great. Kid Power all the way!
Live on,
Gokin
Kids have the power. We are the future of this planet, and we need to take our planet back. It's our job to save the world. We can do it, even without the adults. Kids can be just as smart, just as wise as the adults. And in some cases even smarter, even wiser. We have the imagination to put our plans into effect. I'm not saying adults can't help us, 'cause they are a major help. But we have the power. Kids can fight for our world. The adults can help, but it's up to us to save the world. Individually one kid can do great good. We can do countless things separately. But together, we can do ANYTHING.
Adults aren't bad people, they were kids once too. But as we grow older, we lose our child-like innocence. We need to get back to the mindset of a child. We need to get back to the point where everyone is a potential friend rather than enemy. We need to get back to the point where we can trust again. Adults, you don't have to be adults if that makes sense. Go back to being a kid. Go back to trusting, go back to having fun. Go back to what made your childhood worth living. The world is so obsessed with getting ahead. So worried about success, it makes me sick. We need to get back to the times where we did things because they made us happy, not to try to beat someone else. Where we do our jobs to support each other, not because of the amount of money, or how much recognition you'll get.
Ask a kid what they want to do with their lives. They'll tell you what they think is cool. They'll tell you they want to sing, to act, to be president, to be a cop, or a super hero. You know why? Because they believe that they can. Why can't they do it? Why can't they be the next president, or a superstar? I'll tell you why. It's because people cut them down. People tell them that their dream isn't reasonable. There's a 1 in a million chance of making it. So the kid gets disheartened and loses faith and ends up doing something they hate for the rest of their lives.
You know what I say to this? I say it needs to stop. We need to encourage kids to follow their dreams. We need to tell them that they can be the next president, or a famous superstar, or a model, or they can be the next Superman or Spiderman. Who knows, maybe one of them will actually make it. Sure, they may not have the strength of Superman, but they could definitely work out to be strong. With the encouragement of those around us, anything is possible. No one is born better than anyone else, some just work harder because people believe they can do it.
Kids, it's time to take our place back at the leaders of the world. We control the fate of the world, the adults are just there to help guide us. It's our world that we inherit, so let's make it a world to be proud of. Let's save this world and everyone in it. Together we can make a world without fear, but with trust instead. We can make a world where we all get along. We can make a world where we are all free to live how we choose. Kids, we have the power, so let's use it to make the world great.
As always, I'm here if anyone needs me. Just email me. Gokin_kun@yahoo.com. I'm here to listen if you need it, or if you have ideas for the blog. Let's make this world great. Kid Power all the way!
Live on,
Gokin
Friday, June 22, 2012
Self Conclusion
I've been listening to the a song lately called Self Conclusion. It's a song that is undoubtedly about suicide. It's an acoustic song, very melodic. It has a story to it, and it goes like this: The setting is the edge of the world. (Really just a cliff I'm assuming). There's a man standing there (the story is from his point of view) and then the girl enters. She basically tells him that she's there to kill herself, but he's in her way. And the guy just sits there throughout the song trying to talk the girl out of suicide. Basically, she calls him crazy and stuff, until the very end. She agrees to give him one night to prove himself to be better than death. His response shook me the first time, as I've been in the situation that this story takes place (just a different setting). He said "Settle precious, I know what you're going through. 'Cause ten minutes before you got here, I was gonna jump too." I really love that song, because it has a happy ending, but kinda leaves you hanging.
Now, back story over, I'll get onto what I really want to rant about. I just want to say, suicide isn't the answer. I have friends who have gone through with it, and it hurts those you leave behind. My friend Chris tried it 2 years ago. He overdosed on pills, and had to go to the ICU and rehab type thing. Sammy went through with it, as you all know by now. Life does get better if you give it time. If you're contemplating suicide, email me, my email-address is on my profile. And I will never mention anything about you or your life if you don't want me to. I know many people who have been touched by suicide, including my entire family. When I was very young one of my aunts committed suicide. She was very well loved by the entire family, but there's no going back. So, if you're considering suicide, think about those who you will leave behind.
I think it's time I talk a little more about Sammy. I need to, or I'll never move on. Sammy and I were really really close. We didn't live near each other, but that really didn't matter. She told me everything, and I told her everything too. We talked just about every day, there were few days we didn't. I know she'll always be in my heart, and she'll always be watching over me. I hope she realizes how much I miss her. She was a major part of my life, and now she's gone.
My biggest point is to not do it. You're not alone in the world, no matter how much it seems like it. Sometimes we all feel alone. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here. I'll always be around. I have my email forwarded to my phone, so I'm here for anyone who ever needs me, just email me. I'll call you, text you, make an account on any free social networking site to be here for you. (I can't do paid ones, I don't have the money). So, basically, I know I'm repeating myself, but don't commit suicide. It hurts everyone around you, and you never get the chance to take it back.
Lastly, thank you Allie. You've been inspiring me to save the world. I was really going to give up with the death of Sammy, but now I know I have to try my best. This post wasn't written all at once, so my thoughts aren't really flowing, and I apologize for that. I do have a plan though now. I'm going to save the world by the process of changing lives, even if it is one at a time. But I can't do it alone. Whoever reads this, do some kind today. If you see a homeless man, buy him food. If you see a woman struggling with her children and groceries, offer to help out. If we all lend a small hand we can change the world. Darkness spreads fast, it can change our whole day and make it terrible if we let it. But Light can do the same, so let's spread our light onto the world and show them what we're made of.
I guess this is it. The last thing I want to leave you with, is this. I'm always here for you, whoever you are. I'll always be. Come to me at your own time, I'll listen. I have love for you all.
(Sorry this post has been all over the place, next one will be better)
Live on,
Gokin
Now, back story over, I'll get onto what I really want to rant about. I just want to say, suicide isn't the answer. I have friends who have gone through with it, and it hurts those you leave behind. My friend Chris tried it 2 years ago. He overdosed on pills, and had to go to the ICU and rehab type thing. Sammy went through with it, as you all know by now. Life does get better if you give it time. If you're contemplating suicide, email me, my email-address is on my profile. And I will never mention anything about you or your life if you don't want me to. I know many people who have been touched by suicide, including my entire family. When I was very young one of my aunts committed suicide. She was very well loved by the entire family, but there's no going back. So, if you're considering suicide, think about those who you will leave behind.
I think it's time I talk a little more about Sammy. I need to, or I'll never move on. Sammy and I were really really close. We didn't live near each other, but that really didn't matter. She told me everything, and I told her everything too. We talked just about every day, there were few days we didn't. I know she'll always be in my heart, and she'll always be watching over me. I hope she realizes how much I miss her. She was a major part of my life, and now she's gone.
My biggest point is to not do it. You're not alone in the world, no matter how much it seems like it. Sometimes we all feel alone. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here. I'll always be around. I have my email forwarded to my phone, so I'm here for anyone who ever needs me, just email me. I'll call you, text you, make an account on any free social networking site to be here for you. (I can't do paid ones, I don't have the money). So, basically, I know I'm repeating myself, but don't commit suicide. It hurts everyone around you, and you never get the chance to take it back.
Lastly, thank you Allie. You've been inspiring me to save the world. I was really going to give up with the death of Sammy, but now I know I have to try my best. This post wasn't written all at once, so my thoughts aren't really flowing, and I apologize for that. I do have a plan though now. I'm going to save the world by the process of changing lives, even if it is one at a time. But I can't do it alone. Whoever reads this, do some kind today. If you see a homeless man, buy him food. If you see a woman struggling with her children and groceries, offer to help out. If we all lend a small hand we can change the world. Darkness spreads fast, it can change our whole day and make it terrible if we let it. But Light can do the same, so let's spread our light onto the world and show them what we're made of.
I guess this is it. The last thing I want to leave you with, is this. I'm always here for you, whoever you are. I'll always be. Come to me at your own time, I'll listen. I have love for you all.
(Sorry this post has been all over the place, next one will be better)
Live on,
Gokin
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Our dream
I decided to start this blog because of a total of three reasons that all intertwine. Reason one: my best friend Sammy just died. It was not an accident, she purposefully took her own life with a bullet to the heart. She was my closest friend, and my partner, more to that later though. The second (and most important reason) is because I want to save the world. Sure, that sounds rather silly, doesn't it? But..This world is getting worse by the day, and someone has to save it. Originally that was the plan with me and Sammy. She was my partner, and together we would save the world. She had the plans, and I had the courage to put them all into action. But she took her own life before I could read her plans. So here I am, no plan, but an intense desire to save the world. I almost gave up on it right then, when I heard about her. But someone talked me out of giving up. She's the third reason I've decided to write this blog. Her name is Allie (sorry if you didn't want me using your name). She's one of the sweetest, caring, most selfless people I've ever met. She'll stop at nothing to make sure that you're happy, even if it causes her pain. The world needs more people like her.
Now that it's understood why I'm making the blog, and I've gotten that off my chest I guess I'll really tell you what it's all about. Let's start with the name. It's called "Our Dream" because Sammy and I shared the same dream to save this world. And now I've found Allie, just as I lost Sammy, and it is her dream as well. I'm not saying Allie is my new partner, but maybe we'll work together sometimes, or even go there eventually. I'm not sure, I'll let that work itself out. Now, a bit more about "Our Dream." Our dream is to make the world a better place. A place where you can sleep soundly at night without worrying about..well anything really. I'm not sure if I speak for Allie with this too, but it is definitely true for me and Sammy. Really, I'll be writing in this blog to kind of document thoughts I have, or things I've seen or done to try and make the world a better place.
I may be just one person, but I share the common dream that unites us. In the darkest night, I'll be there. When all your friends are gone, call me. If you read this, and you feel alone, like no one understands, trust me. I will always understand. I've lived through a lot in my 18 years. I've seen so much cruelty, so much pain, and so much suffering. I'll be there for you if you need me, any of you. It doesn't matter if you like me, hate me, or even wish I was dead. If you need a friend, I'll be there. All you have to do is email me, or comment or whatever. Not sure how this site works anymore.
I am one person. Without a plan. I will do my best to save the world though. Even if it is one person at a time.
Live on,
Gokin
Now that it's understood why I'm making the blog, and I've gotten that off my chest I guess I'll really tell you what it's all about. Let's start with the name. It's called "Our Dream" because Sammy and I shared the same dream to save this world. And now I've found Allie, just as I lost Sammy, and it is her dream as well. I'm not saying Allie is my new partner, but maybe we'll work together sometimes, or even go there eventually. I'm not sure, I'll let that work itself out. Now, a bit more about "Our Dream." Our dream is to make the world a better place. A place where you can sleep soundly at night without worrying about..well anything really. I'm not sure if I speak for Allie with this too, but it is definitely true for me and Sammy. Really, I'll be writing in this blog to kind of document thoughts I have, or things I've seen or done to try and make the world a better place.
I may be just one person, but I share the common dream that unites us. In the darkest night, I'll be there. When all your friends are gone, call me. If you read this, and you feel alone, like no one understands, trust me. I will always understand. I've lived through a lot in my 18 years. I've seen so much cruelty, so much pain, and so much suffering. I'll be there for you if you need me, any of you. It doesn't matter if you like me, hate me, or even wish I was dead. If you need a friend, I'll be there. All you have to do is email me, or comment or whatever. Not sure how this site works anymore.
I am one person. Without a plan. I will do my best to save the world though. Even if it is one person at a time.
Live on,
Gokin
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